Shutting & Opening the door

Letting Go of something that has played such an important & influential part in your life is an  amazing experience in ones life. The emotions you feel are confusing at times you are sad to see it go but at the same time excited why? Well when you think about when you are shutting one door that means closure for some not an easy task to an emotional one to do but  remember you are in theory opening another door no door shuts without another one opening. The room may not be the same as the other one but is that not what makes the change exciting?

Why am I blogging about this well this week is one of letting go of SureSearch. This week is my last week playing a part of this company. For those of you who know me and SureSearch you will understand that this is a HUGE step for me to take.

For those who do not know to put it simply this is a Business that I have lived and breathed with my Husband for 5 years. When my first child Kayla was 8 months of age my husband, managing director, father of one daughter turned and said "I need your help" so apprehensively I put my little Kayla who mind you had a hip brace on at the time into care for a couple of days a week to assit with this business I knew nothing about called "SureSearch" This turned into a couple of days, to a full week to then becoming so involved that I knew everything about "SureSearch"

As time passed and went quickly to add it got to a point were Hubbie, MD, Dad done an expectational job to turn this business into one of success now I can proudly say we did it together. There has been awesome highs like obtaining a first major truck equipment, winning our first major contract, employing extra staff and there is some been some lows normal business roller coaster rides. I have special memorable moments within this business being pregnant through this time with my second sitting at my desk and watching the kicks hit the table from my stomach to working right up to the day I was due to be induced it has just been so apart of my life.

During this time I have been so blessed to work with some amazing people that have made my life extra special and even taught me a few things about myself that I did not know. Some have even become family. The journey I have shared with these people has been one I will not forget I work with family, friends and made friends a long the way that is probably why I am so passionate about "SureSearch" is because of the people. Also to Hubbie, MD, and father of my child what a challenge a shout out to those that work with there loved ones it is do able but a challenge that I wish to let go of now.  No more MD just my husband now which is awesome! It has been like planting a seed and Glen and I watering it and watching it grow into something that is still alive and still grows makes you proud it has been like having another child hence why I it is a HUGE thing myself.

SO here it is final week of SureSearch I let you go and now spread my wings you have been my comfort zone, my learning curve  but now I am ready to shut the door and walk into the next room of my life!

So remember to those that are thinking or about to a shut door it is a roller coaster but the experience is amazing and you will never forget that room that room is just apart of your house it may reopen again it may stay locked. But living in a one bedroom house is not as fun.

Fresh Start

So the theme is Friday Fresh for myself and a relationship. A special someone asked me today "can we start over and have a Fresh Start?"  For the sentence to be even said must of taken a toll on that other person and the relationship to get to that point.

When someone says Fresh it means to me clean, new & alive which in return is all positive and exciting for the both parties. "Start" well that can mean so many things to each individual one may think  "I am going to start from now" or the other person could think "I will start that next week" The word start means "to begin or set out, as on a journey or activity"  no where in there does it say "when" hence why it can be such a grey area. A journey or activity why would I or anyone wait to make up the time to start when you have NOW!

This special someone has asked us to have a second chance, an opportunity to join together on a new journey that is going to begin from  when not sure yet but Some people do not even consider jumping on the journey, why?

Belief- They may not believe the other person can start over or even YOU may not believe in yourself to start over
Disappointment- something that no one wants to ever feel so we avoid to feel this way

I would be totally lying if I said I do not feel any of this at the moment I do trust me I feel them inside and out but is it worth loosing that relationship in my life because of two things that will at the end of day reflect on me? No not worth it especially when it is the other person dug deep and was brave enough to ask for the "fresh start" wish I asked for it first HA!

If a relationship which is a connection of two people could be mother & daughter, lovers, bother & sister , two best mates any relationship at all that has lost it's way by getting to a point were you are both unhappy, have anger towards each other, can not see eye to eye, fight all the time or even lost touch with each other why don't you have a "Fresh Start" why don't you be the one to  say it first and say "Can we start over, let's have a fresh start but starting from this minute on" I doubt that the person will say no and if they do well you know were you stand and that other person could be just feeling those two that I mentioned their belief and disappointment but in time they will come around I am sure!

All I can say is the me being the person on the other side being asked I feel privileged and honoured that someone still wants that Fresh Start with me some people can be told "Stop this relationship is over" so I am excited about my Fresh Start with that special someone in my life starting from NOW.

To that person that asked me for a "Fresh Start" thank you for giving me the chance I really look forward to the journey with you

Bx

I DID IT!

Hi, my name is bee wakelin first time blogger 

I will be honest this blogging world is totally new to me the above sounds like I am standing in a room full of people confessing! I have never done a blog, never written one, I am terrible speller, was in the lowest English class in high school so to give it to you straight I am way out of my comfort zone SCARY!!!!


Seeing's I am new to this world of Blog that I have joined I thought I would do some research on blogging? Bad move it created a flood of fears. How? read on and you will discover the truth.........


First Fear- I am so totally LOST? What the hell you are you thinking Bee did you know As of the 16th of February 2011 there is 156 million public blogs in existence. so I am sure that I am maybe the 200th + Million people to be doing this! But then I guess the saying goes "if you can't beat them join them " Maybe that is why I felt out of my comfort zone 156 million is an amazing number and here I am little Bee making up one little blog to add to that million WoW makes me feel like an Ant. Hang on an ant  that is pretty awesome now that I think of it I feel like I am apart of the colony, a little team member making a difference to hopefully others and also myself  huh not bad really. So LOST has really got to change I am not lost I am actually FOUND,  first fear gone! 


Then my next emotion to hit me was SELF DOUBT- Was I opening up a can worms on myself? what if people think I am silly for doing a blog? what about what people think about my blog? what if everyone hates my blog? So I looked up what is a blog? what does it mean? From what I can compile and what a blog means to mwa is the following; "Me (the blogger) exposing my inner thoughts on the world wide web and allowing followers (hopefully I get some!) to get to know Bee Wakelin who I am, who is in my world, how my world is and how I make it change and  hopefully in return I learn about other peoples thoughts and there world" so really I guess it makes me feel naked on the web hey being naked is meant to be liberating so this Blogging might be fun and not that bad so maybe followers can join me and feel naked to. Second fear slammed!


My final thought (for now I am sure more to follow) was fearing in getting this Blog WRONG and if that happens does that make me FAILURE?-  In the past I have read and followed other peoples blogs and thought "How awesome are these people, they must be so smart and proud of themselves!" but then I had to take a good look at myself what was I thinking WRONG & FAIL? no way how can that happen there is no RIGHT or WRONG in sharing your thoughts so what if it is not going to be grammatically correct I did not know thoughts were graded. FAILURE why does that even matter I would have felt failure had I not done this and pushed out of my comfort zone so I have already had one step to being a winner and failure is not what others think just what I might think of myself and hey I feel like a winner already so yeh third fear go take a hike! 


I am sure more emotions will come as time goes by but you know what I think they will go quicker than come. I know I have done the best thing I have put my self out there put my "fears" aside and that is what it is all about. Trying something out of our comfort zone, seeing what other wonderful potentials that we have on the inside and it is not about getting them Right or Wrong it is about just giving it a go.


Setting personal goals to ourselves is making your life a "rolling stone that gathers no moss" (thanks hubbie Glen is his favourite quote)  and put it together with Nike multi million dollar quote "Just do it!" and you have hit gold to your Goal!


So future followers my name is Bee Wakelin and I am a first time blogger and proud of it and can not wait to my next one and that is one of my goals started, created and ticked  off feels good. 


BX